Kissing the Door of Heaven – Day 3


But one of his disciples, Judas Iscariot, who was later to betray him, objected, “Why wasn’t this perfume sold and the money given to the poor? It was worth a year’s wages.”

John 12:4-5

Mary had anointed Jesus' feet with an expensive perfume and cleaned it up with her hair. Judas was so consumed with money that he called her worship waste. He's saying: It's okay to give something ... just not that much.

Self-centered people seem to say, what am I getting out of this? At some point, Judas may have thought: this is NOT what I thought it was going to be. He may have noticed someone else is getting all the attention -- a dangerous place to be. Judas' problem was that Mary had given too much. Do we look at others and wonder why they're giving so much of their time, money and energy to Jesus? A fanatic might be anyone who loves Jesus more than we do, yet compare it to the amount of time, energy and money families spend for sports. How about politics? It's okay to spend our efforts on everything else but Jesus. When he told his disciples someone sitting at the table would betray him, they all wondered, Is it me? That's a healthy question to ponder! We want to have a posture that's willing to examine our ways, our thoughts and our reactions. Jesus' love gives us the freedom to say, "Maybe that's me!"

Are you willing to examine your heart? Considering our hearts takes courage -- am I being self-centered? Am I seeing this situation correctly? Am I handling this in the best way? It's a powerful posture to adopt in seasons of confusion, hurt, pain, conflict and success. Self-reflection says: Not my will but your will, Lord. It's a courageous way to live surrendered to what Jesus wants to do in you so he can work through you.